Afraid of Success

Last night I realized that I'm on a clear path to becoming a fully self-sufficient intuitive healer and it scared me half to death. I've been using Simpleology 101 and it's helped me to put together a clear marketing plan. I can now see the steps I need to take to get me from today to my online email launch in less than two weeks and I was stuck in place not moving at all. A whole wave of self-doubt came up - what if I don't provide enough value? what if I get stuck or don't know what to do?... I'll stop the pity train there for the sake of those of you reading this. Let's just say it spiraled downward from there.

Have you ever noticed how sometimes it's not that we're scared of failing, but that we're scared of success? Why is that? It's a totally irrational fear. I mean it must be someone with a crazy sense of humour that would spend months putting together a plan to be a successful intuitive healer (run a marathon, have a dream relationship... you fill in the blank) and then stop dead in her tracks less than 2 weeks from it actually coming to pass. I mean really! For me it all comes back to my own self-esteem and feelings of worthiness. I know in my head that I just have to keep taking the next step, but this morning I couldn't force myself to do it, my heart wasn't in it.

I finally gave myself permission to take a personal day and just do whatever I needed to do. I kept reminding myself that "this too shall pass" and that when obstacles appear it's a sign that we're taking action and moving forward. This is where I'm so thankful to have friends, intuitive guidance and the willingness to be emotionally present. I listened to some Abraham-Hicks tapes, wrote and allowed myself to flow with whatever emotion came up. I feel much more relaxed and focused again now. I know that I've cleared a major hurdle on my path to success and am moving forward again. I'm thankful that I was able to take this time to take care of myself. All I have left to say is thank you for this experience and what else is possible?